Audios Stretchy Pants...

I know that my weight gain began about 6 years ago.

I'm an emotional eater and I seemed to be emotional all the time.

A 3 year relationship I was in was starting to fail and he had some some really stupid things to me but due to the fact that I "loved" him I kept hanging on and that is never a good idea.  At least it taught me a lot of things and looking back now it has made me a stronger person.

Then there was major work drama, I was so miserable that all I did after work was eat and sleep on the couch, it was a vicious cycle, the more I ate the worse I felt therefore time to eat more food to make myself feel better.  Plus having a horrible boss didn't help the matter, one that grabs onto back fat and makes it move and then says to other employees "Come feel this, it feels so weird!" That really perks a person right up.

But being young and trying to desperately hold onto a job I loved, refused to make a comment, for whatever reason I was too much of a wimp to defend myself.  I ended up quitting that place and moved onto a much better place, which was just great and I met some amazing people that I really miss and think about each day.  They were like a breath of fresh air and I made one lasting relationship that I truly value (you know who you are!)

Add in a couple more heartbreaks and it, for me, is a recipe for body disaster.  Now, I'm not blaming all these people, it was me that put the food in my mouth, and me that decided all I could do was sleep instead of going for a walk, but that was the mental state that I was in at the time, and let's face it, these people, who were a huge part of my life, were having a negative impact.  Looking back, I really was a shell of my former self.

But times are a changin' my friends.

Since the big move in August I have dropped 10lbs, I power walk my dog twice a day and I think just being a homeowner has made the difference, no one else is going to vacuum, do laundry, mow the lawn, clean the windows, shovel the snow and all the other house chores that come with it.  Hence why I am writing this blog before 7 am on a Saturday, it is still too dark to be outside and make noise, plus I have a flat tire on the car to deal with, but that is a whole other story.

I feel that my old confident self is starting to come back, the girl that was so awesome and upbeat at university has been making guest appearances in my day to day life, and I really like her, just so long as her bar star counterpart stays away, that one got us into trouble sometimes. ;)

So 10lbs down but a lot more to go.  Sorry Uncle Ben and Aunt Jemima, you too Ben and Jerry, I'm leaving the family.