Since moving to Vancouver, I have had the chance to reconnect with friends that I haven't seen in a long time. It has been great.
Within the first week of being here, I saw 2 very good friends, both of which oddly enough were from Revelstoke. One I was in brownies with when we were the ripe old age of seven, played soccer with in highschool and then was lucky enough to be neighbours with for a few years in university, which made a true friendship grow from just a casual acquaintance. Conveniently enough, she also lives 2 blocks away from me now and although we lost contact the last few years, living in the same city again has brought us right back to where we were before. Something I am very thankful for.
The other, I have been good friends with since grade 8, and have had many adventures and misadventures with over the years including being prom dates and using each other as significant others when the need has arisen. I am very lucky to have him and we will be life partners for many years to come (or so says medical forms that we have both filled out throughout the years. Thank you Kelowna General.) It is with this good friend and his family that I am spending my Christmas with, something which I will always remember and will be thankful for. Being that this is my first Christmas away from my mom and dad and Revelstoke, who better to spend it with then a family that I have known for so long and one that I consider to be family. I want to thank everyone else that did offer me a place to go, I really appreciate it and I am lucky to have each and everyone of you in my life.
Back on the subject of good friends reuniting....
I had a company Christmas party coming up and was in need of a date. So I sent out an email to 2 of the guys I had been at university with that were living here, and BOTH were willing to jiggle their existing schedules to come. The one that ended up coming with me was a great date. We had a lot of laughs and agreed on the way home that even though it had been 6 years since we had last hung out, it felt like it had just been last week. That is the sign of a great and lasting friendship.
I also went to lunch with another friend from university last week, again one that I hadn't seen in 6 years and it was the same thing. Feels like it had only been a week. We had a great lunch and the hour flew by, with both of us agreeing that we needed more time.
So to all these people I would like to say thank you and that I value our relationships and it is great to have you back in my life. A special Merry Christmas to each of them and to everyone reading this blog.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
I'm not your back-up plan.
WARNING: This blog comes when I am in a pissy mood and need to vent a few things. But at the same time it gives you a glimpse into why I have this low self-esteem issue that has been mentioned before.
It seems that I have always been most people's back-up plan, even one of my aunts said it to me in an e-mail one time when I was venting to her, she's sick of me being a back-up plan too. And being one really sucks. I am the person that you date or hang out with after Plan A has fallen apart. Or, for whatever reason, I'm the girl that no one can know that you hang out with, it's a big secret. We can't be seen in town together and we only hang out at night. I must be a real embarrassment, that or all my friends are actually vampires.
These are the type of people that I seem to have been drawn to, and for a reason unbeknown to me I have always accepted it. Well all that is starting to change. I have started deleting people that fit that profile from my life, and although it was super hard when I did it, it feels good now. So good-bye men that want to be friends and keep me hanging on just until they meet someone new, the most recent one telling me of a new love interest and then having the balls to exclaim with delight "And she looks just like you!" Delete. Actually, after a few days of thinking about it, he even became a member of the Facebook "blocked" group not to mention deleted off my cell phone and thank God for caller ID, I was able to not answer calls until he got the hint. Sorry, I just don't need to hear about all your sexual escapades with my apparent twin. Feels good now. Weird some days when we had been such good "friends" but with SOME of the friends I seem to have, who needs enemies.
The other fun group that I seem to have is the ones that seem to be supportive, but actually make little comments that knock you down. This group I usually take any and all of their input with a grain of salt, because they usually can be pretty funny, so I keep them around. But there are sometimes when little comments they make linger and bother me, so these people right now are on very thin ice as I try and get rid off all the negativity that keeps bringing me down.
People that are reading this and feeling guilty, I wouldn't worry too much, because it means I haven't blocked you off Facebook yet, which means I probably haven't clued in that you are treating me like that yet. So here is a plea, either change so you don't fit into the category or make my life easier and delete me, odds are I might not even clue in you have deleted me.
Being a back-up plan is fun for no one in my eyes. So even if you aren't doing it to me, take a minute and think about the relationships that you do have with people and if you are doing it with anyone in your life, for their sake try and stop. Save someone else the upset that hopefully you can now see that it causes.
I know that some readers might be thinking this blog is supposed to be about getting to Everest, and it still it, this is just all part of the healing and changing that I need to do to achieve the goal. Sorry if it was a downer, but hey, you got warned at the beginning. I promise that the next one will be more spunky :)
It seems that I have always been most people's back-up plan, even one of my aunts said it to me in an e-mail one time when I was venting to her, she's sick of me being a back-up plan too. And being one really sucks. I am the person that you date or hang out with after Plan A has fallen apart. Or, for whatever reason, I'm the girl that no one can know that you hang out with, it's a big secret. We can't be seen in town together and we only hang out at night. I must be a real embarrassment, that or all my friends are actually vampires.
These are the type of people that I seem to have been drawn to, and for a reason unbeknown to me I have always accepted it. Well all that is starting to change. I have started deleting people that fit that profile from my life, and although it was super hard when I did it, it feels good now. So good-bye men that want to be friends and keep me hanging on just until they meet someone new, the most recent one telling me of a new love interest and then having the balls to exclaim with delight "And she looks just like you!" Delete. Actually, after a few days of thinking about it, he even became a member of the Facebook "blocked" group not to mention deleted off my cell phone and thank God for caller ID, I was able to not answer calls until he got the hint. Sorry, I just don't need to hear about all your sexual escapades with my apparent twin. Feels good now. Weird some days when we had been such good "friends" but with SOME of the friends I seem to have, who needs enemies.
The other fun group that I seem to have is the ones that seem to be supportive, but actually make little comments that knock you down. This group I usually take any and all of their input with a grain of salt, because they usually can be pretty funny, so I keep them around. But there are sometimes when little comments they make linger and bother me, so these people right now are on very thin ice as I try and get rid off all the negativity that keeps bringing me down.
People that are reading this and feeling guilty, I wouldn't worry too much, because it means I haven't blocked you off Facebook yet, which means I probably haven't clued in that you are treating me like that yet. So here is a plea, either change so you don't fit into the category or make my life easier and delete me, odds are I might not even clue in you have deleted me.
Being a back-up plan is fun for no one in my eyes. So even if you aren't doing it to me, take a minute and think about the relationships that you do have with people and if you are doing it with anyone in your life, for their sake try and stop. Save someone else the upset that hopefully you can now see that it causes.
I know that some readers might be thinking this blog is supposed to be about getting to Everest, and it still it, this is just all part of the healing and changing that I need to do to achieve the goal. Sorry if it was a downer, but hey, you got warned at the beginning. I promise that the next one will be more spunky :)
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